New :)

Helloz..

The holiday season is on! Hope my readers have got smiles on their face while reading this post. If unfortunately, you don't have.. please bring it for my sake, coz I have mentioned it :) :) Great! Thank you! :) Spread smiles ahead with your smile! I read somewhere.. 'You should keep smiling, no one knows when someone is falling in love with your smile'. Rest is your decision. ;)

With this year ending, I am kind of planning to think afresh, start afresh and welcoming the new year with novelty. Many people would be thinking to do the same. A great step I must stay. We ought to leave the haunting past and our mistakes behind to move ahead. I might have done thousands of blunders till now, I am glad to say, I was forgiven always. Thankfully! But why people like me are still thinking over them?? It is high time, to see the beautiful present and relish it, and to await the future. We generally crib about the things we do not have with us, rather than being happy for what we have with us. It is said 'Count your blessings'. Try and spend few minutes on counting your blessings. I am sure, you will forget about the 'missing' things.

We are on this earth with some responsibilties. In running here and there for fulfilling them, we forget to live life our own ways. Slowly and slowly, we even forget what our 'way of living' is. We substitute the life with work and responsibilties. Let us try to do stupid things off and on. A simple way to smile. :)

I was just wondering why do we wait for "new year" for taking these pledges. As each moment is New, we can do that in every 'new moment'. I wish we all do something which makes us and others smile daily. May we all be blessed with all the happiness!

God bless..! Take Care! Keep Smiling! Welcome the new year with new hopes! :) :) Ciao..

Relationship!! Saturation..!

Hello J

I am just loving this chilling weather!! It feels so thrilling when you cannot see anything beyond few meters. All you can see and sense is fog, some icy crystals around you. Something cold touching you and filling in your breath. Just wow!! J .. but not so good part is.. people like me have to go to office in this beautiful weather early in the mornings, while others are cuddling in their warm quilts. Let me try to find out something positive here too… yes, I get to feel the lovely cold, when others cant. J I believe I wrote something more and serious about winters in one of my previous posts too. Yes, winters are close to my heart. I simply love them and I can write on them a lot! But would not do it right now. You can have a sigh of relief. It is not as boring as it seems  to you now. ;)

I read somewhere once you start with writing a blog, you are very active and you write pretty often and later on your pace slows down. I am finding it true may be. Yeah.. the craze of writing and wanting to express is high when you start. As soon as the time moves on, the passion reduces, may be ability to spend the same time in writing is no more possible. Isn’t it the same with everything?? Whenever we start with something new.. we are too excited for that, when time passes on, we tend to get slow. May be our interest reduces. Normal human tendency! May it be.. studying something new, a new job, a new TV series, a new friend, or may be a new relationship or may it be anything!

I would love to write on relationships.. one of my favorite topics to talk on! When it is new, you have lots to talk about. You can speak for hours, you can listen for hours, or maybe you can just be quiet for hours and you love even that. Everything is so quick in the beginning, and then, it just slows down. Things don’t move. You might feel saturated. You feel this is it! Heights! And you even do not realize when it became actually ‘it’! I have seen people getting bored..  and I am glad to say I have seen people actually made for each other. I must say, I truly admire them. I wish them all the good wishes. But for those who get ‘bored’, trust me guys, it is not always true that the other person is boring!! You need to look at yourself in the mirror and realize where you went wrong. It takes two hands to clap. Isn’t it? Think and react. You alone can’t make a relationship work, and you alone are not responsible for making it so called ‘boring’. If two people walk together on the same road with different pace, they are not going along together. For going with each other, your pace has to be same. 

Good Luck!! J

Keep Smiling! J Ciao!

No... Please No!!

I so want to speak out! The most hated thing in the world is.. being misunderstood!! And when this happens with the your loved ones, it is so intolerable. I am writing this in the midst of my emotions, in the midst of my 'debates' with someone really close to me. 


This life is so short to love, how do we find time to fight? or hate? I don't know, but all of us do. We tend to have arguments only with those, who really are important in our life. Yes, I just said, we have arguments with people important to us. It simply happens coz.. we want those 'important people' never to take us wrong. We want them to know that they are important and they are in our mind all the times. We never forget to expect from them, but then we may forget to see their expectations, leading to all the negativity! I wish I could just be blessed with those eyes to identify the things expected out of me.. whether it is 'a bit' or 'a lot'. I really am myself all the times. My priorities do not change over night. I wish .. I can just wish to be understood the right way. I am not a pushover, I use my brains, cant help!! 


I just can't afford to lose, may be, I am not worth losing too, depends actually!!


I did not want to spread negativity. I just want,those of you, who have taken out your precious time to read this, to understand.. you just cant let everyone go. Expectations are bad, but we expect from those who deserve that. And when you are expecting, do not forget to understand that there are some expectations from you too. You cant always see your side of the coin only, opening you eyes and mind for the other side is equally important. So, never let everything go! Some things deserve to be held for long...... 

Wo Lamhe..

Hello Everyone! Happy December J

I was just thinking .. how my each and every moment reminds of some things and some people. Our little head carries plethora of memories.. may be good, bad or neutral. But all these huge memories become a part of you. Some of them.. we want to re-happen, some we just recall, some we can’t forget.. and some we do not want to forget ever. A complete mix.. I have many such memories with my family, with my friends and with some really important people in my life.

I just want to share a weird memory.. I don’t  know why it comes in my mind suddenly. It is not something great but then still I am trying and writing it down. I remember, when I was in class 6 or may be 7, I used to hate Hindi as a subject. And to add to it, we had a really strict teacher. Trust me; I have her face right in front of my eyes while writing. Me along with my classmates used to be petrified to attend her classes. One thing more, there was a rule of rotation in my class.. as in, you need to keep on rotating your seats. If you are sitting on the first bench today, you need to sit on the second bench tomorrow and so on. Then came a day, when I was sitting on the first bench confronting HER. I had got a ‘stylo’ hair cut just a day before, which had hair falling on my forehead. Then, she started staring and staring and staring and staring some more. When, this timid Nancy tried to look in her eyes. She suddenly spoke.. “Can’t you pin your hair??” That is all in my mind.. it still comes in front of my eyes as it is happening live. I do not know the reasons, really! Please readers, do some analysis and tell me why I recall it, when it is not at all important to me now?? There are some incidents which just reside in your heart and mind.

There are some really beautiful moments with me.. one of them which I never expressed is shared in next few lines. Around 8-9 years ago, it was my brother’s birthday celebration at my home. My whole big family was together. Me and my family were spending great time. I started crying suddenly. They were tears of joy. And they were presumed as a kid crying coz it’s not her birthday. I could not explain how happy I was. I couldn’t explain the actual reason for those tears. Yes, this memory is still in my eyes.

There are ‘n’ number of memories which I really want to put down here.. Really, really close to my heart.. May be I would not justify them properly with words. Will end here.

Take Care!! Happy Weekend! J Keep Smiling J Ciao J

P.S.- If you do not find me sensible in writing these days, please ignore! 

Friends.. Family

Hi..

When I say ‘Friends’.. I recall very few names in my heart.. my closest buddies.. Those people who know you to the core and still love you, and they are always there. One of my friends, a new friend actually, wanted me to write on this. But then, there is endless to write on friends. And still I am so unable to find the apt words. For people like me, who are staying so away from home, these friends become family. So, this post is really really so close to my heart.

That Airtel song.. ‘Kyunki Har ek friend zaroori hota hai’, it is so true. Each friend is an important part of life. There are many kinds of friends. Many are there only when they need you, and few are there at all the times. I am so proud to say all my friends are of the second category. On the top of them is my best buddy.. he is just there at all the times. A true friend!! And I confess, I do not reciprocate. L I do not know, at times I am so weird.. I just cannot help. I am sorry. Yes, this word may not help. But then, I am so so sorry. I wish I am there at all the times.

You might have hundreds of people in your friend list on Facebook, but you are available on chat to only few. If I start deleting people whom I do not interact with, I am sure my friend list will become really shorter. There are various ways through which people become friends.. school, college, work, friends of friends, social networking sites.. even this blog gave me a friend. J I so want to share the way people ask for being friends on Facebook. It really is hilarious at times. All the girls atleast might have experienced it and most of the guys have done it! ;) 

But I still do not know what friendship is. Knowing someone so true and loving for the same? Is it? May be.. but such friends are hard to find. A friend knows you from where you have come, what you have become and where you want to reach. I feel a single friend can become a world to me, but then truth should be there. It is such a precious relationship one can ever have. Our family is pre-decided by God. But our friends.. we chose them, we decide who should be there in our thick and thin. Just try and make this choice so diligently. I hope I do the same. To actually have a friend, you have to be a friend. Yes, reciprocation is important too! For my buddies, I am glad I have all of you here. Trust me, I am there and I love you all from the core of my heart. I don’t feel I need to name my friends here. Those who actually are will surely smile after reading this post.J And believe me, you are an important part of my life. Just be there.

Take care! Keep Smiling J Ciao. 

Autumn? Winter?

Hello  J

I believe all of us are so confused these days about this weather.. Autumn.. Winters?? What actually is the season these days in Delhi? I am so dying to feel Dilli ki Sardi. On a serious thought, I was thinking have we hurt our mother Earth to this extent?? Winters are becoming shorter year over year. Global Warming! Something which was a GD topic at one time for MBA. Go green, save Earth! Nah.. I am not writing about this.. this post wont be a write up on Global Warming for sure!

I wanted to talk about this beautiful season. People like me, who love winters like anything are waiting so badly. I remember my mom taking out the woolens and keeping aside those naphthalene balls from the big bags. I remember the chilling water.. the dewy mornings and the foggy evenings.. Yes, those were the times….

When I was a kid, I remember listening on the TV channels that ‘so and so people died due to winters’.  We listen to such news today also. The way it affected me then and now is completely different. The thought process of a kid is so superficial.. I used to think how can one actually die due to winters?? It is just a season when you need to wear so many clothes and you don’t feel like bathing. As I grew up, I got the answer.. each and every one of us is not that lucky to have a home, a family and some nice woolens.. and even a blanket where one can cuddle in and hide oneself from the cold.

Lucky people like me are waiting for winters to feel the cold and to get a feel of being lazy in bed and in the warm quilts. And yes, also to show off  the good winter clothes.. But people who have only a couple of clothes to wear, who do not even have a shelter on their heads.. who sleep on the road.. they do not want winters to come at all. They do not want them or their family to shiver and die. I so empathize their situation, but then am I doing anything for them? Except cursing the government for inflation and doing nothing to reduce poverty? No! Nothing! So, what shall I do? Shower money when a beggar comes and begs? No! This is not the solution either. I feel, the money collected like this is used in a form which we can’t even imagine. I feel I need to do something strong for this. Yes, I, one from a billion population of India cannot actually decide one fine day and reduce the poverty and save people from dying from winters. But yes, I can atleast put my little but strong effort in this area. Now, I really need to think upon what can I do…. May God bless them. I don’t want anyone to die due to winters in the coming season.

My winters, by the way, have partially started.. using warm water.. avoiding bathing ;) being lazy… and I am sure this will increase with time. I can’t believe I have already started getting late to office due to my being lazy. I hope I don’t miss my office due to this reason. These days, I just can’t afford to actually. My dear friend Deepika has already started feeling the Christmas winters ;) And yes, wanted to give a very big congratulation for her beginning of achievements! J Would end on this smiling note.

Take Care.. Happy Winters.. Keep Smiling J Ciao.. 

The Gurupurab and The FaceBook Vacation

Helloz… :)

Happy Birthday Guru Nanak Dev Ji!! Happy Gurupurab to everyone! May you all be blessed .. :) . This is one of the days when I so miss Punjab and the Gurudwaras and the Diwali-like lights all over. Things are not very similar in Gurgaon. If you wish to pay your homage, you might need to find one Gurudwara here. And when you find one, it will be too far from your place. Cultures are so different all over the world. Today morning, me and Deepika were talking about Gurupurab, we both have different meanings of it, coz of our different bringing up, different cultures. Wow! Isn’t it wonderful actually? How many culture reside in this one small NCR? I am recalling what I wrote in my Geography exams in class 6th or may be 7th. “India is a country of diverse cultures, glorious history, outstanding monuments, various religions and festivals.” A perfect example of ‘Unity in Diversity.’ Same lines written by all the C.B.S.E. students ;). It is true, indeed.

In my school, Gurupurab is celebrated on a wide scale, with due prayers and karah parshad.. (aate ka halwa) :).  All my Punjabi friends might have updated there FB status as “Happy Gurupurab to all” or.. “lakh Khushiya Patshahiya je satrguru nadir kare..” or may be some more spiritual messages. But I couldn’t see.. coz I have deactivated my FB profile. :( Yes! Nancy, who updates FB almost every second hour with something has deactivated FB..!!! Uff, I am acting so weird! But I am so glad, I got calls from my lovable friends who couldn’t see me on FB. My sweetheart friends missed me :) and questioned me why I am not there? and where are my irritating updates? All I said was.. on a vacation! ;)

I also missed a lot of things. A few of my friend’s birthdays, some new ‘articles’ thing launched by FB, going though a few people’s profile.. being updated by the changes in relationship status of people around.. ;) the changes in profile pictures.. and surely all the new interesting updates. How reliant I was on Facebook for so many things.. and so many of us are. Good or Bad? I don’t know! For me, its doing a good thing, keeping me attached with the people around. But then, I was just checking am I getting addicted?? Got the answer.. No, I am not. :). But then , yes, I missed it badly.. am coming soon.. very soon :)

Thanks for reading. Take Care! Ciao! Keep Smiling :)

Communication.. Right Communication..

Hello Readers.. :)

I was just thinking.. how important it is for me to speak.. to express what I wish to. I would surely die without it. This Communication thing is really imperative! Atleast for me, it is close to breathing. It feels so good to be heard, to be understood. It is surely an unsaid need. At times, it is greed to do all the talking but not wanting to listen at all. And what happens when you are misunderstood, even after communicating??  Disaster!!

Trust me; this is happening in this ‘Big Boss Season 5’ atleast! ;) I don’t follow it die hard.. but yes.. saw a few episodes just to see thodhi mirchi.. ;) and I was like OMG!! It is said something, and these gals!! Uff, they understand something, which is totally different!! 
The most important thing in communications is to hear, what is not being said through words. Gestures are so important too.. the tone, the eyes and the actions.. At times, your eyes say something else and your words are on the other direction. These situations are like “have-tos”. When you have decided not to express the reality.. you just.. have to hide the reality with words. Yes, it is said, Eyes never lie.. But, everyone and anyone can’t read them also. 


I believe, don’t delay in saying what you feel.. tomorrow never comes. Say it now, with no regrets! :) Have you ever felt your life might have been entirely different had you said something when it was needed or done something at that time? Yes, all of us might have felt. And we regret when we feel so. When I am dying, I do not want to feel that I have turned into a wrong person coz I did not do what I wanted to for the whole of my life. My each action today would make me, would nurture me. And that is why, I said what I wanted to.. :) 


But now, have I become expressionless? Did I ever wanted to do this? I do not know!!!..  No.. I don't speak, my eyes speak, which can't be read easily! I am short of words to say what I wish to, my gestures are speaking a lot. I hope in this speechless communication, I am understood the right way.


Ciao.. :) Take Care! Keep Smiling :)

After 30 months..

Hi :)

I hope everyone's Diwali went great! Mine was truly fantabulous!! Nothing was very special.. as usual lights and crackers.. the only thing special was my wonderful family!! Its great to be home.. I am sure.. a few people may have missed going home this Diwali. I was feeling really bad for Deepika.. I had to leave her alone at Gurgaon. But I know, she would have managed.. ;)

Things have changed a lot since I am in Gurgaon. Not at my home, but surely with me. People are same at home, things are same at home. The feel and smell of home is still the same. But surely, I have changed. One of my closest friends, wanted me to write on this. I believe, this thing is better noticed by people around.. who knew Nancy before and now. With this noble thought in my mind, I seriously asked my dad.. "Papa, have I changed a lot in past 30 months?" My dad replied.. "You should know better!! Check your weight now, compare it with 30 months before and you will realize!" and he giggled. I have gained.. and papa never miss a chance to remind me this. ;) :P So, yes! This is one of the major changes..

Other ones.. yes.. I never used to travel alone. I couldn't dream of even a 30 kms journey alone. And now, I travel like 70 kms daily.. for my workplace. I have to come to Jalandhar alone too. See, how Brave I have become ;)

I just could't say NO. I couldn't set my own priorities. I did not realize how I should work upon my own happiness. Now after these 30 Months.. I have learnt to say NO. I can see my priorities. I almost know how can I be happy. And I know who is actually important for me.. and who is not. I can speak out what actually my heart means. I have become stronger emotionally. May be, environment in my home town was so nice.. I never knew I need to be tougher. So, now I am pretty strong. Yes, betrayals hurt now too. But the difference is in coming out of them. My expectations have reduced drastically. I am glad.

I was on a pocket-money. I was a graduate. After 30 months, my family and God ji have made me capable enough of earning. Yes, this is indeed a very big change. Handling money is not as easy as it seems. People like me, who are away from home and have started earning suddenly are generally not able to manage it. You can say, I am blessed! I am able to manage money.. thoda-bahut ;) :P

There might be many changes more.. may be I can't figure them out. It would be so good if my readers who know me can share.. I will add them up too! ;)

Ciao.. Keep Smiling!! :)

Opinion? or Backbiting??

I was wondering why people like talking about others a lot? Is it that their life is not at all interesting, and hence they need some X, Y or Z to talk about? I am using pretty nice words (talking about others) here for backbiting and bitching actually. A few of my readers who indulge in this may not like, or even may hate my post.. but still this is what I actually think.

I got to know a few people commenting on what kind of a person Nancy is. I can estimate out of those, 99.9% comments on me would be the distorted truth. Yes, I am calling the mirchi wali gossip as ‘distorted truth’. The rest 0.1% would be those, who actually know me. I still don’t know, why am I given that much importance over others.. as in.. why am I the privileged one?? The topic of discussion?? Is your own life so boring, that you can’t even talk about it?? Whatever.. it is a democratic country.. n yes, we are ‘free’ to express our opinions. But try and kind of avoid speaking shit about others without full information. Yes, yes!  You have got full rights to can hate me for this post, but this is what I actually felt!!

As, the idiom says, ‘All that glitters is not gold’. So, it will not be good for me to blame anyone. It’s just that I wish people could think and then speak. Presumptions are not always true. At times, whatever we see with our eyes is not always true. But we humans are kind of structured in this manner. We tend to trust our eyes, more than our instinct. I would surely prefer following my instinct. I believe, good instinct usually tells you what to do long before your head has figured it out!! But we wait for our head to speak something, and in that waiting, we are too late! I am also not very sure.. whether which one of these will be giving the positive results.. but still I don’t want to be late atleast... I am actually falling in love with this full of surprises life.. :)

Ciao.. Take Care.. Keep Smiling!! 

Love is in the air ♥

Helloz.. 

Now, after around 6 months of my post graduation.. I am seeing many engaged couples around, who were once 'In a relationship' in college. People actually, moving seriously towards accepting each other forever and ever and ever. It’s a beautiful thing actually to accept someone so completely. Yes, once you change your relationship status from 'In a relationship' to 'Engaged' or may be to 'Married”, you just cannot go back. I am surrounded by people madly in love.. who really want to be with each other for the rest of their lives. I somewhere find it a herculean task actually. I don’t think someone would be able to tolerate me forever!! I am a difficult person.. and so.. many of us are. But, I am sure, when we decide to be with someone, we accept everything! Everything here means, positives, negatives, neutrals.. everything! At times, a word called adjustment comes into play. I personally feel.. this adjustment should be replaced with unconditional acceptance. Life would seem simpler and sweeter. :)

As per Hindi movies, you can’t forget your so-called first ‘love’. I said 'so-called', coz at times, you yourself do not know that is it really love? or just a liking.. or many be infatuation. It is also said, Love never changes.. I am not actually very much in favour of these statements. I have people around, who were not very successful in their first relationships.. and have moved on and are living a great life. And for some, the first relationships were so painful, that they have literally started hating the other person. This is how, Love converts into Hate. How can this happen? I find it so weird. But then, yes, it does happen.

What do we all want in the end? A hand to hold for the rest of the life, a shoulder to lean on whenever you feel like, someone to share the actual ‘us’, somebody who can understand each and every bit of us… someone.. who can claim the complete right on you.. who can make you feel complete! It is as simple as that, a few emotional needs. It is also, as complicated as it can be!!

Just ‘being what you are’ makes things easier. There is nothing better than ‘being loved for what you are’!! Why do people try and pretend to be someone else? Why don’t people actually say what they are? Why do people do not speak their heart out?? Trust me; doing all this is a necessity for everything to be true!!

And yes, I am coming across a few compliments.. with people waiting for me to write again. I am truly thankful to you all for appreciating me. Thank you so much for reading.. :)

Ciao.. Take Care! Keep Smiling! Be yourself!! :)

There is only one success – to live your life, your own ways!

Each and every one of us is striving for success, spending enormous hours in a day working for this. I have people around me who work like anything for their one goal – Success! The meaning of this word surely would vary from individual to individual. For some money, for some fame, for some calm mind, for some ‘attaining salvation’, I believe it can be anything under this earth!

And for people like me, the only success is ‘to live my life, my own ways’. Being an independent human being, with an independent mind, I truly believe I have the right to live my life, the way I wish too. I really admire the care of my loved ones. But all fake care over and above this is not tolerable at all. I do not really want to be irritated by interference. Another point which I was thinking of, many a times, people so want to do something, but do not do it! Reasons – Society, what would people say!! I really wonder, in such so busy world, how and why people get some time to talk about others.

At times, our own apprehensive approach becomes hurdle in doing the right things and right time. I truly don’t know what is right or what is wrong. These days, I am just doing what I feel like and I am really loving it. It feels so good .. I am not being apprehensive for anything, may it be me or people around me. ‘Wow’ feeling…!! :)

Try doing what you wish to do, speak out, don't care about the irrelevant people!! In one word, "Live".

Take Care Guys!! Keep Smiling.. Ciao  :) :) :) :)

Day 1

Day 1 of everything is so difficult and full of surprises. Isn’t it?

When I had to go to school, I was timid. I can’t clearly remember how my Day 1 went, but it was one of the most dreadful feelings. I was too afraid for everything which is coming to me. As time passed, the days went on, after few days, things seemed so normal to me. Coz a human inculcates that ‘habit’ of doing a particular thing. Similarly, day 1 of graduation was also full of surprises, excitement. One of the reasons was a sudden shift from a co-ed environment to only girls environment. ‘New people’ add to all this.

Then, for Post Graduation, Day 1 at new city, a sudden shift from a familiar city of Punjab to unfamiliar part of NCR. Again, meeting new people. I must say the probability of meeting wrong people increases, the wider your purview becomes. It was pretty easy to trust everyone in KG, isn’t that? And this ‘trusting everyone’ reduces with time. At least with me, it happened. With time, you come to know what kind of people you like to be with. But then, possibility of meeting them is not very high. Whenever you meet them, never ever lose them! Grab them.. and keep them close to your heart! Life will seem wonderful. And when they are along, the Day 1s also seem beautiful, very beautiful. I am glad I have such people around.. :)

Take Care! Ciao.. Keep Smiling.. !! :)

Some bits and pieces..

Hellozz...

It’s been a long time; I have not used my words in writing this post here. It’s been quite busy, with new work and new people. A few things happened since I wrote my last post.

Finally, my bestest buddy was able to find out some time for me to watch ‘Bol’, was waiting for long for it.

I have got some more and important work at office.

I am knowing someone and finding that God has already sent my Xerox here before sending me.

 

I need to shift to another place, from a PG to a rented place. Planning this is so very painful, God knows what happens with the implementation. My mom is so worried and I am worried coz she is getting worried.

I am trying my best to convince her that I am not the little irresponsible one now. I am able to manage the things, believe me I am grown up. I have learnt from her, from life and from each and everything around me. As all mothers are, my mom is worried too.  If possible, she would come here, leaving all her work, just for me to settle down. I understand her situation so clearly, and I understand her unconditional deep love for me. I hope things go well.

Another thing, I have a confession. I am terrified to confess my voice rises quite soon, when I talk to them, on whom I believe I have full right, special people in my life!! But I do not want to do that. I read somewhere, “Never raise your voice, just increase the quality of your argument.”  I so very much want to do that. But in that argument, voice increases, even if there is enough of the quality. I am terribly sorry for doing so!! Would leave now.. 

Ciao.. Keep Smiling !! 

'Hindi Diwas' or Hindi Day??

Hi.. I hope you guys are doing pretty well.

Whenever I think of writing a post here, I don’t have anything on my mind. And when I have many things on my mind, I don’t have words to express. It’s been such a boring week till now. My mind is freezing to a stage.. I don’t even know what actual word I should use for this situation. Feeling like stuck somewhere. Uff.. I don’t know!! Really need a good weekend!!

Now, moving on to what I wanted to talk about.. ‘Hindi Diwas’.

It was yesterday, when I was motivated somehow, to change the language of my Facebook page to “Hindi” on the occasion the ‘Hindi Diwas’. After googling some things out , I came to know, it is celebrated because the Constituent Assembly of India had adopted Hindi written in Devnagari script as the Official Language of the Union on 14th September 1949. Most of occasions/festivals/ or any ‘divas’ doesn’t matter to people like me unless it is a chhutti at work!! ;) But this time, it somehow touched me, may be a little patriotism had shoot in me for ‘Hindustan’s national language Hindi’.

I belong to Punjab, called ‘Punjabi kudi’ by a couple of friends. Still the use of Punjabi was not much in my conversation at school or family or college. I used to speak either Hindi or English. It’s still the same when I am working here in NCR. I remember in school, we were prompted to speak English in all the classes except the ‘Hindi’ and ‘Punjabi’ class. In them, we had to speak that language only. Yes, English was promoted majorly and still is, coz we need to converse in that language globally. But, somewhere, the ‘National Language’ and the ‘Mother Tongue’ of quite a few of us has been lost somewhere.

You won’t believe, when I changed my Language Settings in FB from ‘English(US)’ to ‘Hindi’, I was finding it real hard to read. I am sure I was able to go to my wall and profile etc., coz I am familiar with the normal designing  and 'look and feel' of FB. I even changed back my settings from Hindi to English with a little difficulty. If I wanted to read and go to that particular link in Hindi, I was truly failing. Moreover, when I was on this Hindi FB Page, I even felt like translating it to English with google translator. I was even laughing that I could not understand what is written. Was I laughing at FB in Hindi? Or was it me? My failure to read the language which I actually studied for more than 10 years of my life?

I am really not promoting to speak shudh hindi. It’s just that I myself do not want to forget it. I truly want to be proud when I speak or read it. I hope all of us feel that way.

Ciao.. Keep Smiling.. !!

Special me.. :)

I was just feeling so special, a special child of God. When you start counting your blessings, you would find your sorrows very less in front of them. This is what happens with me atleast...

I have started with a few things recently.. like.. Thanking people, a word "Thank You" makes someone feels so good.. :) Just showing my gratitude to others make me  feel so good. Actually this thing came up from my very candid approach towards people. I speak what I feel like.. and I really might have hurted people in doing the same. So I am trying to be candid in expressing my gratitude too! :)

I have been trying to switch my mind from negative  to positive thoughts. Thinking of atleast one positive thing in the whole messy problem is really weird. Trust me! But, when you find that positive thing, it overcomes the negative ones so easily. And that problem vanishes away. I have learnt this from a couple of people around me. I am not sure that they know they are doing it or not, but its a wonderful thing!

Wow! Just while writing this blog post.. I have a wonderful thing to be thankful of! My wonderful lovely darling frnz.. I wasn't with them on my B'day.. so they got cake and lots of stuff to eat.. All my favorites!! :D Got to go now!!

Ciao.. keep Smiling!! :) :)

I too had a Love Story

Helloz...


All those of you, who are here to see.. whats all about my "Love Story" will be a little disappointed. I just wanted to talk about a book which I read recently "I too had a Love Story". Okay guys, I know it was released a couple of years ago and I am too late to read it, still wanted to talk about it coz it really made me cry. Yeah.. I am a cry baby too.. too much emotional types u know. 


There is a guy called 'Ravin', who has his three wonderful friends. All of mid 20s.. (shaadi ki umar wale.. :P). On their re-union, along with lots of masti and fun, they talk about a serious topic called 'marriage'. This sets Ravin thinking on this issue.. He makes his profile on an online marriage portal and after many unsuccessful attempts, he gets to know a girl named 'Khushi'. 


As usual relationships begin, they chat, then they talk and talk, then they talk more, and more, and more.  They fall in love.. obvious types! Ravin and Khushi have never seen each other, but love has made them one. Impatiently waiting for the next phone call, little surprises bringing them closer, late night conversations, tears and smiles, all these made it a read-till-finish book for me. I really could feel the warmth in their talks on phone, in the use of words like 'shona' spoken by Khushi for Ravin, their first meeting and in each and every word written. Finally, their parents meet, then they meet hiding it from their parents (proper Hindi Film types). All goes so well. 


As in normal love stories, there are some hurdles. Sometimes, in lovers or in families or societal issues. But here, hurdle was something really unavoidable. Ravin has to split from Khushi ... and it made me cry.. I was in train, going to my home from Gurgaon and I cried just when my station was half an hour away. 


What I could feel, it was just a normal love story. But the way Ravinder Singh has expressed his emotions is truly amazing. I am not a very lovey-dovey kind of a person, I don't even read love stories too often. As of reading is concerned, I love Mysteries.. but this touched me like anything!! Hats off to the person who has vomited out his emotions in his words. 


Thanks to Deepika for lending it to me and asking me to read it. I actually would not have bothered to buy a copy for me. I really hope I made you readers curious to read it (those who haven't). Yeah guys.. I am not selling it!! :P 


Thanks for reading.. Take Care... Ciao.. keep Smiling.. :)

I am Self - Centered

Recently, I read someone’s FB status..  “I don’t like self-centred people, they only think about themselves.”

It set me thinking how much do I think about myself? The answer was .. almost every time. I am breathing for me. I am eating for me.. I am being social for me. Even I talk to friends, hang out with them, as simple as being on facebook, posting this blog, all this… for me!! I am working, earning money for me. I am self centered like anything. Isn’t it? And, so we all are. A simple enlightenment.. even if I knew this fact already.

How can someone hate the other person for being self-centered then?

Just got reminded of another quote which I read:

"We all are self-centered, its just the radius differs."

If a person considers himself to be in the centre of the world, the centre of attraction, that’s  kind of a ‘bad thing’. The bigger the radius, more self-centered you are. In the other way, if a person is in the centre of their world, yeah.. his ‘own’ world, the radius is small. Then, it would be a very different matter. This is a healthy self-centeredness, a kind of Mature Self-Centeredness, which is really a necessity.

Obviously, if I have an option to get a salary hike or to get it done for some XYZ.. It would be me, am hell sure of it! Yeah, I am being self-centered. But, a mature one… na..? Phew.. I am relieved.. I am not that bad! ;) :)

Ciao..  Keep Smiling..  :)

Me and myself..

Hello ..

Okie.. so here I am.. expressing me to the world out there. Generally everyone cannot really get an opportunity to hear what I need to say.. what I feel.. what my thoughts are like.. But.. But!! Now I am kind of flattered by friends who admire my thoughts.. and it makes me to go ahead with this blog! Thanks a ton guys! 

Let me tell anyone out there reading this.. I am Nancy.. a simple, quiet and introvert girl.. who generally is busy in the psycho-analysis! Yeah.. that’s true.. don’t misunderstand me to be psychiatrist or something…  its  just that I understand people well. When I say people, it means simply those who I know from quite a few time. Umm.. moving a little further, yeah.. we were talking about what I do.. I am a finance person.. into business reporting. You can carry on by knowing about me and myself by the about me section. ;) 

I am close like anything to my family.. sometimes I become a cry baby coz of my emotional attachment with them..  I have been living quite far from my family from a little more than a couple of years now.. really really n really want to go back!! But its just that.. I say it again n again.. emotionally! I have lots n lots to achieve here…. But I miss home…………….. :’(

Luckily, I have a wonderful family here.. my loving, wonderful, a little stupid, crazy, strange friends!! But I really love u guys.. <3

Whenever anyone asks me.. what are your hobbies Nancy? I still have loads to think..  I don’t know.. oh.. I am still confused!! What do I like.. is it reading?? Then a thought comes <How many books have you read in your whole life..?? 4 or 5? That makes reading your hobby?> and then reading as a hobby .. nah..
Next thought of a hobby.. listening songs?? <How many times you listen songs?? Only when .. when.. I dont know!> so, even this is not a hobby… yeah.. I know I really need to think!! Will think and surely let me and you know guys too!!

I think each and every passing day I am knowing more and more about me.. sometimes bad.. and sometimes really good! I am still in a learning process.. n I believe most of us are.. n it would not end till I die..  yeah.. I am a little philosophical too.. You guys will find lots of it in coming posts.. 

Cant make it that long.. I dont want you guys to be bored… n never planning to come back here !! ;)

Will continue later now.. Ciao .. Keep smiling!